Anxiety Advise

Hi again, so I am here with a post to give you advise on anxiety and panic attacks and other disorders, as you guys know I struggle with anxiety, depression, OCD (I am borderline OCD) and I have an emotional disorder. I had a panic attack in school today and it was horrible, I always think I can outrun my past and pretend nothing happened but it always comes back, I got turned down today by someone I thought I could trust and that they didn't care about too much about what I had done, but loyalty comes first guys, no matter what, always be loyal. I ran to the bathrooms and listened to sad BTS songs which I do not advise to any army's as you will just cry more lol. No one knew why and I refused to tell them because I wanted to be alone and wallow in my own depression and sadness. I have tried suicide and I have self harmed, but no matter what you do you must face your fears people. DON'T TAKE THE PERMANENT OPTION, IT DOESN'T HELP!! Okay so I admit it is wayy harder to do then people give us credit for. So here is my advise for panic attacks, When is school I start to shake and can't breath if there are too many people, but what I do is cover my eyes and take three deep breaths, the fear has built up inside you, no one will hurt you, I promise. So close your eyes take three deep breaths and open them again, the fear has disappeared, you will always be safe as long as you let yourself know that. Soo, with OCD, personally I am not incredibly bad but if someone ends up getting their germs on me I freak, if they cough or anything of that sort I run to the bathroom and vigorously wash my hands, I have at least ten thousand million cleansing wipes in my bag along with hand sanitizer, I get worked up also if I didn't do a routine correctly or something is out of order, I start crying, but know that germs are all around us and we need them to live, It will be okay, here is my key trick, take one cleansing wipe to school (NO CHEATING) and if something freaks you out stop before you use the wipe and say what happens if something worse occurs do I want to waste it on this? and then you won't use it, and then you won't freak out. Okay so depression, I lost someone really important in my life about a while ago (see previous post) I never really bounced back from it but I am telling you here, life will suck and life will throw so much crap at you but never EVER tell yourself that you are pathetic or fat or ugly etc... just knowing that all of you have surrvived for all these years so far is amazing, so be proud, no matter what people say YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL, I know it is hard and we all want to skip the blood sweat and tears over the mean comments and that evil person in our head telling us otherwise, but starving yourself, self harming or killing yourself would firstly kill the people around you emotionally and wouldn't be getting rid of the problem, it would cause another, This world is as imperfect as the next but what is perfect? A nice body? Happiness? No, it's self acception, and inner peace, Love yourself and Love others,

Yesterday is History

Tomorrow is a mystery

Life is a gift

That's why it's called the present

Signing off for now,

Love Luissa03xox <3